what's the point of even trying whenu put 110 percent n fail i feel like dying now I keep crying cuz my feelings hurt me

what's the point of even trying whenu put 110 percent n fail i feel like dying now I keep crying cuz my feelings hurt me more then enough theres no chance of heeling its just a feeling I love so hard and feel alone who am I even dealing with in my life pit spite got 1 fight and u lost sight asked u to be wife now my heart should of just got cut with a knife it would of hurt less u didn't care when shirtless with no where to go or call my home u kicked me out back tk back alone a days n a row and I walked down the road with one thing on my mind and what did I find just same road and it led back to same place my only home