dead inside

why would i go dead if alive cause i already feel like it im dead in the insidei always smile wide to hide so i lied none of u knows my lifetime time it was really bad so i learned to accept what i had my life needed a map cause im always getting lost in my mind trying to find a way till i shine acting like is fine oh n tr it was not in line trying to deny my life couldn't find a price my peace turned to a slice my life cold like ice always eating ricem my life it was like a dice sometimes there is a way sometimes there isn't there is no life such wishing over much u ca judje much cause im going higher but my life was like fire it is not my choice it is not my desire always getting dryer ito my grave cant stand seeing my mom work like a slave so im trying to save myself from the bad wave but i know im brave thinking of creating to stay aside god be my guide cant let it slide can't always i have to divide money besides happiness oh no