Trauma
It's trauma, yea Fighting all these demons in my mind It's trauma Stickin to my gut and staying with my kind Trauma, Like a soldier in the rut ill be Fighting with these demons till my body goes to rot. I was born in a family who was already broken, filled with trauma Filled with lies And a mama who was just trying to cope my sister and I would cry and hold one another Stuck in a corner while different men are beating on my mother. I covered all the pain with drugs and lies and now I'm ashamed to even feel alive I've had to bury the pain deep inside While I pray to my divine To keep me strong and stay defined Livin a life where I'd require a mask to hide all the facts that I was deeply broken inside. Bottled up and kept to myself until triggers set me off and I'm ready to pop. But hold up, they have meds for that. I'm against that shit, numbing my brain so I won't feel the pain. But instead I'll be dead inside. Pause- chorus-hook All I wanted was a family Someone to love me Someone to hug me Just someone to show up And be there when my mind gets ugly Not by a mother who wasn't ready to grow up. Or a father who was battling his own demons before us My dad was never around and I don't hate him for it. He was just trying to find and support his family I always said I Hate you and never had love for you Even though I was left to fight my own battles, sent to my room where I cry in denial I wasn't ever good enough for you, I was broken, tired and helpless My childhood left me drained and damaged All the fighting made me block out the memories. I cant even remember my child hood tendencies To busy trying to survive and stay afloat but all the damage is done and im sinking slow I try and let go and this is how i do it. I write it all down and throw in some music pour my emotions into this beat and hope it produces a little bit heat.
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It's trauma, yea Fighting all these demons in my mind It's trauma Stickin to my gut and staying with my kind Trauma, Like a soldier in the rut ill be Fighting with these demons till my body goes to rot. I was born in a family who was already broken, filled with trauma Filled with lies And a mama who was just trying to cope my sister and I would cry and hold one another Stuck in a corner while different men are beating on my mother. I covered all the pain with drugs and lies and now I'm ashamed to even feel alive I've had to bury the pain deep inside While I pray to my divine To keep me strong and stay defined Livin a life where I'd require a mask to hide all the facts that I was deeply broken inside. Bottled up and kept to myself until triggers set me off and I'm ready to pop. But hold up, they have meds for that. I'm against that shit, numbing my brain so I won't feel the pain. But instead I'll be dead inside. Pause- chorus-hook All I wanted was a family Someone to love me Someone to hug me Just someone to show up And be there when my mind gets ugly Not by a mother who wasn't ready to grow up. Or a father who was battling his own demons before us My dad was never around and I don't hate him for it. He was just trying to find and support his family I always said I Hate you and never had love for you Even though I was left to fight my own battles, sent to my room where I cry in denial I wasn't ever good enough for you, I was broken, tired and helpless My childhood left me drained and damaged All the fighting made me block out the memories. I cant even remember my child hood tendencies To busy trying to survive and stay afloat but all the damage is done and im sinking slow I try and let go and this is how i do it. I write it all down and throw in some music pour my emotions into this beat and hope it produces a little bit heat.
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