Suicidal thoughts

uhnn uhnnn uhnnn uhnnn. uhnn We started off as Best friends now you my girlfriend quited the gangs cus it's was it or you i don't know about tomorrow but I know you i don't believe in fate but i believe in you omoorrr you been going hard I'm really scared now i feel insecure cus we close now and everytime someone really close dies i think we need to slow down so i push you away but you come at me again taking ODS of prednisolone cuz it helps take pain away omoorrr i no go lie this love thing heavy for my mind i wish everything could normalize I'm scared every day and night God please help me Suicidal love don give me suicidal thoughts i swear if i lose someone close again i fit to commit i fit to run craze I'm ghosting my friends again e con be like say I'm turning to a freak Paranoia strong hold me insomnia i no fit sleep anxiety I'm always thinking