Never Wanted

Never Wanted so I stay up late nights crying my eyes out added me to a group chat but the never found out about my pain because they treat me differently sometimes I wanna die but it's not easy I've been so sleepy I'll stay awake all night thinking about my past sometimes I wish I could go back because it feels like I'm not wanted they treat me like an outcast and I'm always to afraid to tell my mom about my feelings I wish I could just have a friend to be with to talk to and the agony hits and it's always tryna burry me and then all of my burdens come back to haunt me and I know that I have 3 friends left who would never want me dead and then the pain hits because I feel so alone these days I just want to cave in I don't wanna be seen I've been hiding because it feels like I'm never wanted so I'll come back strong and keep on making beats to feel free the agony hits me I just wanna cave in but I keep on telling myself to keep on moving forwards so then I'll keep on moving I just want to be in the rap game making music is how I cope with all of my feelings that I have I'll never go back and I know that some want me so I'll stay I'll keep writing melodies just to feel free it's just that I took a long break from the socials and now I'm back I took a break to find myself and now I'm off the shelf I'm here to stay I just had to find my self because these last few weeks I've been at my lowest thinking that nobody wants me and but now I'm free thinking about all of the people who wants me and who belives in me and that I'm important to them and so I love them never wanted and now I am because I just found my true fam