i been put down and shut out my entire life as a outcast to society for my issues i still cope with today was outclassed in school i had no friends growing up just the demons I fought with everyday all the hate and abuse I had to deal with on a daily basis the tears that would flow like a river from all the depression the degression of my illness setting me back the voices that wouldn't stop tormenting me but im still here sharing my story as im a over comer don't let life win if ur down keep on pushing to be a fighter not a static to this illness i fled from all my problems to ease the pain with all the dope i ingested running like a night train bout to derail on a daily basis dreading the lies i was told i was embedded with all my feelings that haunted me over the years i been so exhausted from all the tears and seams that was thrown at me all the broken dreams i had to withhold and the steps i had to take to be a better man with the issues i delt with it felt like a unwinnable battle at times dealing with unthinkable emotions my whole life digging myself out of the hole i was thrown in as a kid always alone in that dark well screaming for help all these demons scheming for my dismay putting me in a fray always praying for a answer out surveying all the possible outcomes trying to deal with my mental issues in a postive way not being judgemental to myself for the thoughts i was dealing with my mind always racing a million miles a minute i hope these words inspire others dealing with the same issues