This collection of memories has rendered me insane it left the part of me that cares back in the bottom of the bay as ocean waves collaps around me i still listen with distain to all the voices i call friends in my head made up by my brain.  As intangible as ideas they came and called themselves my peers and as im peering over this pier i hear their calls fall on deaf ears. I just can't let all this deceit go so unnoticed and unreceived started to shout but i'm under the sea and how do you scream when you cant even breath. Never notice until its too late that you've finally met your fate and what that means for me is that in disbelief i stay sunken under this straight. chorus till now never could I hear it till now never could I see till now always would I fear till now finally I see me I feel so anchored to this sand I feel I'm sinking not part of the plan but still I feel I'm on the right path but with ideals still holding me back.  I know I know I've got so far to go to drop beliefs, let my energy flow just like a river never ceasing to grow until the point I want to explode. Right before the light has started to glow I set me sights on a powerful stroke arms back head down as I started to row, can't even think how I got a hold of this boat. However it takes me to my destination. I've always know but I never had the patience, no control I don't ever want to face it now i know that part of me's been wasted. Until now. Now I'm starting to see. Until now. I didn't wanna be me. Until now. I didn't think of my dreams as something I wish I wanted to be. Till now.