resistance on end

p∆in On my end, there's been a lot of resistance It's been hard, and I know that I'll miss it But I want to follow through on to my wishes With god as my witness Up until the very last minutes And at the finish I don't need anybody's forgiveness Just got to make the best of my existence ___________v1______________ Came a long way from being a crook just a rook They're about to forsook Scared to take a look Competition shook Not ready for what I'm about to cook Can't find it in any book Everything is what it took By the end, you'll be hooked It's already afoot Up around a brook In a certain nook Is where I put Each foot Atop miles of soot Better start knowing It's been ongoing Showing No signs of slowing So long as waters are flowing The moon is glowing And life continues growing If need be, I'll make them regret what they did and said Wasn't surprised, because the thought crossed my head Tried to leave me dead So they could get ahead I kept seeing red Which was not just from when I bled Focused on getting some bread Gaining tread And staying fed the f up so Then I sped Around straightaways and bends Barely seeing my friends Instead trying to live more on the edge Before I'm on all these meds And near 2 the end Doesn't matter if I do, or don't get any cred ---------------hook----------------- On my end, there's been a lot of resistance It's been hard, and I know that I'll miss it But I want to follow through on to my wishes With god as my witness Up until the very last minutes And at the finish I don't need anybody's forgiveness Just got to make the best of my existence -----------------v2----------------------- I've been struggling Doing things that are puzzling It's rather troubling How much liquor I've been guzzling Shiiiit I admit I'm not proud at all I got a problem with alcohol It'll be my downfall If I don't fix it Instead of always getting twisted Another relapse, perhaps because I always got to get my fixes bc these demons need an exorcism theyre screaming in & out while On the walls upside down triple sixes Pictures of provocative bitches Blowing kisses And a tank with exotic fishes As well as a few glow in the dark crucifixes Life's tough, yet sometimes it isn't Good riddance Once again I've done did it I'm starting to get suspicious Of much more than the superstitious I've been ambitious Yet still oh so vicious Sorry, can't relate, to any type of hate I'm very religious on the inside but the outside appears isn't And that's just one difference Use to be a thug and a nerd Nowadays I burn so much herb bc I've been feeling disturbed Because there's been so much I learned Yet the problems always seem to return Whenever you're at your lowest or feeling superb On my back the weight of an anvil. plus half of the world Been trying to leave it at the landfill But keep ending up at a standstill Turns out it wasn't always meant to be You'd best believe Working my ass off, to barely earn ends meet Only to struggle on through the next week Makes me feel like a fucking dead beat Life continues testing me Getting the best of me, but I can't let it be I'm ready to achieve An outcome that turns out successfully Living rather recklessly Been at odds and making some enemies Doing things that'll shorten longevity And life expectancy Having strange tendencies And certain dependencies Which could very well be the death of me