I can't keep my eyes open x4

I can't keep my eyes open x4 putting my heart on the scale heavy enough to kill building and building my mind is strong talk with my mind leaving my heart inside leave your heart inside tried to run talking with me inside comfortable wasn't an option thought my path was chosen not my scene and they know it hoe in disguse or Vibe this time only if I was inside right? no you got to get your mind a float trap inside what I was then trap outside which is worse breathing becoming a teen adukt life laughing at me cry baby plus I'm mean home is where I want to be meeting you and you everybody wanting me of course the youngest thing keeping my space doing right for me wanting a affair at 16 depending on you now i seeing things father ain't here not in control but when was I when was I ? I can't keep my eyes open x4 I can't keep it open controlled and loosing hope in the moment no focus no direction end goal mouth swelling no light but I keep going I can't keep my eyes open x2 father you don't understand tha batch said I be the death of you but all I did was wanted you made it know to you while u looked at me like you never knew cried for you worked fir you didn't give away to much to protect you but who was protecting me never for me so imma walk with My shoulders up they not brod for no reason every season its go be me breaking down not easy lean hit my brain so fast smiling like I insane fentanyl I realize the next day watching me collapse looking at every inch of me I still don't know what happen g in the bathroom praying holding me in the shower crying silently back in the same clothes I go new panties from the threat store Tha I couldn't afford