The Lord can't save me

The Lord can't save me For my heart is shattered Nobody cares Heaven please take me Never been this ready  My life a nightmare  I dont sleep much Pills and portions Story of my life Hide behind my smile  Am a monster Dark thoughts and deeds Love my dead heros When you die They rewind Tell them my story Like Shakespeare classic No love in my life Just suicide  all my life just want to die kiss me say goodbye tired of getting high I lack gratitude suicide attitude never mind the magnitude or the altitude of all that I done my mother's only son am done from problems I just want to run get a gun blow my brains out the can do without me