it WAS EARLY IN THE MORNING BEFORE U WENT TO SCHOOL WHEN I CAUGhT U SITTING .....ON THE STAIRS U WAS sMOKING OUT THE SNE

it WAS EARLY IN THE MORNING BEFORE U WENT TO SCHOOL WHEN I CAUGhT U SITTING .....ON THE STAIRS U WAS sMOKING OUT THE SNEAK A TOKE ....I SAID NOTHING TO U BUT MY SILENCE WAS ENOUGH TO MAKE U SAD....U SAID MAMA IM SORRY I WONT DO IT AGAIN .....I GAVE U A HUG AND SAID PAPI I LOVE U... till this day u are what keeps me straight with ur lil decent gangster ways.... ....... ID GIVE ANYTHING TO hAVE THAT MOMENT BACK BUT INSTEAD ITS IN MY MEMORY AND I FEEL IT IN MY HEART! AND IT TRIES TO TAKE DOWN ITS A BATTLE WITH MY SELF TRYNA KEEP UR MEMORY ALIVE CUZ RN IT ONLY HURTS ....YOU WAS LIKE A HEROE TO UR FAM U TOOK CARE OF UR LIL BRO U RAISED HIM UP EVEN THOU W AS JUST A LIL BOY U TOOK ON A GROWN MANS ROLE EVERYDAY OF UR LIFE U WAS THEIR NEVER GAVE A CARE WHO SAID WHAT IN UR EYES UR FAMILY DID NO WRONG. .... ILL ALWAYS REMEMBER UR SMILE UR HAIR UR VOICE THEY GO WITH ME EVERYWHERE I GO ITS A BATTLE WITH MY SELF TRYNA KEEP UR MEMORY ALIVE CUZ RIGHT NOW IT ONLY HURTS .... YOU USED TO SELL CHOCOLATES AT FIVE YRS OLD TO THEM WHITE FOLKS IN THEM RICH CALI HOMES SOME DIAPERS FOR UR LIL BROTHER AND THE REST U WANTED TO SAVE FOR AMORR BEN AMD ANGEL...MI WEDITO EL CHALINILLO AKA LIL ALEX DEL BARRIO I WANT TO KNOW IF THEIRS PAWN SHOPS UP THEIR FOR A THAT GOLD LIKE WE USED TO WONDER ABOUT...TELL TIO HECTOR ILL MISS THE CONVERSATIONS WE USED TO HAVE AND NANA TO BEHAVE HER SELF AND ILL BE UP THEIR SOON KIKKIN UP DUSTWITH HER AGAIN.....HOW I MISS UR WAYS WERE UNLIKE NO ONE OTHERS NO ME ARREPIENTO DE VERTE DADO EL REGALO ON IR 18 TH B DAY UR FAVE WHEN U SEEN WHAT WAS IN THAT BOX I SAID GO AHEAD BABY IT BELONGED TO A COP I TRY ITS A BATTLE WITH MY SELF TRYNA KEEP UR MEMORY ALIVE CUZ RIGHT NOW IT ONLY HURTS N I TEY NOT TO CRY WHEN I THINKNABOUT THAT ONE TI.E I WAS DOPE SICK AND U SAID OPEN UR HAND DONT TELL NOBODY OK IMA MITHAFAWKING GANGSTA I GOTTA SAY JUST TO MAKE IT THRU THE DAY MI WEDITO U GOTTA BE HERE SOMEWHERE THIS CANT BE REAL....era en la mañana a antes dY irte al escuela cuando te cacte estavas fumando mari.. .no te dije nada pero mi silensio era bastante para lastimarte...me dijiste mama im sorry if u want i wont do it again.....te di un abarazo y te dije baby i love u.....que diera yo por tener ese momento pero solo aqui en mi corqzon y mente lo cargo con esta tristesa que me consume el alm......un heroe eras para mucha jente tu lil bro lo quidaste n u upraised him even tho u was a baby urself you took on a grown mans role every day of his life u was their never gave a care who said what ur fam in ur eyes did no wrong.. ill always remember ur smile ur hair ur voice they go with me everywhere i goz u used d to sell chocolates at 5 yrs old para ayudarme combrabas pañales para tu hermanito y guardabas para darle a amorr ben and angel mi wedito el chalinillo aka lil alex del barrio estas con la virgensita tu nana y tu tio.hector ill be up soon kippin up dust how i miss u.our ways were unlike no others no me arepiento de verte dado el regalo on ur 18 th birthday ur face when u seen what was in that box i said go ahead baby it belongs to a cop.....i try not to cry wen i remember being dope sick one day u said here dont tell nobody ok.....im a muthafukung gangster i gotta say just to make ut thru the day chalinillo u gotta be here sonewhere theirs no way