As far as I look back and I can see Memmories of a haunting dream Im so tired of having some fake friends I'll heal my pain, new beginnings to make amends I'm drowning in pain, it never seems to end I can't believe in anything I'll transcend the pain, find strength to ascend And whatever happens I don't know what I'm looking for I just know I don't need it anymore I'll soar above the pain, searching for something more I'll hide the pain, and find what I'm searching for I don't know what I'm looking for I just want to be adored I've explored the pain, now I want something worth fighting for I'm tired and i'm bored I won't let their lies keep me ignored Put my best foot forward I'll find a new chord to strum that'll keep me restored I'm tired of trying to be something I ain't got before Will I go back to the board I deserve a big reward I'll cut ties with the fake, embrace bonds that endure For the way that I been born Cut ties with those who pretend, find friends that applaud You've been out of shape and worn My heart's been torn and worn I won't weather the storm But I don't regret anything This broken home is worn A friendship so transparent, deceitful masks all torn All those things I thought I never wished to be absorbed A part of me is torn I have always been warped So I’m cutting the cord And then I get scorched and the lines get forced I did a lot of drugs And im forced to be torched And I dont even have to go back to the yard It aint that time at all times it takes more than just to get forced up Feeling pain, but I won't let it consume me, yup Let the pain go, rise up and don't give up I done had a lot of days with the months Its been three months for six months I drowned in sorrow, for these fake friends I adjust I'm counting the days like a ticking clock with thumps I'll rise above, leave them behind, start brand new stunts I'm spending my time getting goosebumps I'm breaking free, leaving behind those toxic lumps It's time to see what I can do Middle finger to the punks I pour into my consciousness like a shot of vodka I'm counting the hours as a quarter to five blunts I'm running out of time The police ain't got no funds Fake friends, they're phonies like counterfeit ones Pockets fat like no fronts But I can't afford to use my style in dust My life is a movie But that's okay with me The only future I can see The pain is real, but I know I'll be set free Sometimes hate can be but sometimes it's hard to be clean Do you know what I mean The only hope i've ever seen Watching the world go by I stand alone in a dream In this make-believe world, nothing is what it seems I become what I hate No excuses to be achieved Your sanity is now unleashed You are the devil in disguise Realize that you are a beast