#SmokeOpps617 #Boston #Smoke #True story My life's been fucked up, ever since i was fucken young but I'm not gonna let it define me, i see everyone's trynna outshine me like mother fucken sun, I won't let it bring me down Im a stay getting lit off this piff till I can lift off the fucken ground, Take flight and lite up so brite like sun rays on a sunny fucken Sunday while the blunts still blazing at night, pray and stay feeling amazing.WITH GOD IN MIND PRAISING HIM. one, year long ago long away from here there was a family longing to be long away from where we stayed in fear, stayed straight scared of our father as we prayed he care or change but he never did he just stayed deranged, and raged out of control like his heart was ripped out of his soul and every time he flipped we knew we'd be paying the toll, My mother would be playing the role of staying strong for us and keeping us whole, But deep down she'd be crying never letting it show, Some way somehow someday we'd vow to get the fuck up out of this hole. My life's been fucked up, ever since i was fucken young but I'm not gonna let it define me, i see everyone's trynna outshine me like mother fucken sun, I won't let it bring me down Im a stay getting lit off this piff till I can lift off the fucken ground, Take flight and lite up so brite like sun rays on a sunny fucken Sunday while the blunts still blazing at night, prayING TO KEEP feeling amazing WITH GOD IN MIND PRAISING HIM. Who would have thought that I could have gotten brought up in a place so hot but stay so cold? When he scolded I would hold a blanket over my head I was told cause at the time I was just three years old With my mother brother and sister, and this is where we got blistered, got thrown, got kicked and got just enough anger to want to strangle this stranger. this man who kept us in danger the only reason we'd change the place where we lived, and move over to Massachusetts. where we'd never see him again and never give 2 shits, less about him just hoping he'd die. Why the fuck did we have to leave Hawaii over this fucken guy? It was supposed to be paradise where all Dads are nice and full of love and respect if I ever see him again I'll put a fucking slug thru his kneck My life's been fucked up, ever since i was fucken young but I'm not gonna let it define me, i see everyone's trynna outshine me like mother fucken sun, I won't let it bring me down Im a stay getting lit off this piff till I can lift off the fucken ground, Take flight and lite up so brite like sun rays on a sunny fucken Sunday while the blunts still blazing at night, prayING TO KEEP feeling AMAZING WITH GOD IN MIND PRAISING HIM. Now let me tell you about the time I was 9 or was it 9 years later? I was twelve at the time, It's so hard to remember it's the year I lost my mind and Ever since then I still haven't been able to find it, But never mind, it doesn't matter anyhow or anyway what does is the day that GOD had chose to take my mother away, in 96. from March second to third every second that turned would be a second that burned in the emergency room when I learned that she couldn't be saved as soon as I heard those words. My chest instantly caved my legs gave way. I couldn't breathe. I wouldn't believe I wanted to leave but I couldn't see as I tried to make it through. But my mind just raced and made it harder to do. When this unexpected wreckage of wrecklessness happened out of the blue now tell me how do I glue my heart back together when something as common as weather just took my mother forever I told her I loved her and that was the last thing I said to her, she was 7months pregnant and the baby died premature, Her blood wouldn't clot so she bled out all over the fucken floor. My life's been fucked up, ever since i was fucken young but I'm not gonna let it define me, i see everyone's trynna outshine me like THE mother fucken sun, I won't let it bring me down Im a stay getting lit off this piff till I can lift off the fucken ground, Take flight and lite up so brite like sun rays on a sunny fucken Sunday while the blunts still blazing at night, PRAYING TO KEEP feeling AMAZING WITH GOD IN MIND PEAISONG HIM. So after that Accident happened, I found myself so be trapped and holding myself captiver while never fully adapting, never leaving my room, and barely being socially active. I stayed in a state of isolation and blatantly hated this whole creation of devastation, My head practically levitated from being invaded by so many thoughts that overwhelmed me and caused an inflation Causing alot of aggravation while losing my patience At such a young age I was0 already stressing not wanting To be involved or engaged in the stage of depression Which wages this question if life is really a blessing?How come It hurts so much? Is there really a God? Or is there really no such thing as him? And if there is then in the end, where do we go? And why would he let my mom crash and die in the snow These were all the questions I wanted to know when I was just a little kid, all the bull shit I said it started when I was JUST 12 years old My life's been fucked up, ever since i was fucken young but I'm not gonna let it define me, i see everyone's trynna outshine me like THE mother fucken sun, I won't let it bring me down Im a stay getting lit off this piff till I can lift off the fucken ground, Take flight and lite up so brite like sun rays on a sunny fucken Sunday while the blunts still blazing at night, PRAYING TO KEEP feeling AMAZING WITH GOD IN MIND PRAISING So my life was like this it was fucken priceless as I'd fight this hypness not to go slice up my right wrist, GOD must like me like this, I thought He must really like this, I wanted to slice my right wrist lifeless cause FUCK IT LIFE SUCKS AND IM PISSED!!