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I'm alright im ok. it hurts when I visit you at the grave. I miss you everyday. since I rested you were you lay. I can't take this pain. sad stressed fucken depressed. miserable person. suicide is not an option. I'm on a mission to stay living. I'm not kidding. I'm not quitting. got me thinking. be a waist cause I'm winning. life's not hard lifea not easy. if I known now from the beginning. I would start over again. fuck this pain. ending of this life is a new beginning. patience gotta believe in. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired .doped up wired buzzed blazed lit as fuck. crystal alcohol & budds. psychedelics. dope visions lifes a game like grand theft auto living. your not living a full life unless you die atleast once. I gone under 3 times. after death I came back blessed and cursed. I'm calling Satan no answers must be busy. God don't answer shit everyone knows it. opposites attract. good an bad .a bad guy good intentions. loves to hate hates to love. I'm cold but so darn hot . positive side there's no negative. sunlight is brighter then my future . I'm gifted with