I'm tired of being tired amd always having to deal with the bullshit The hate they have for me I just can't comprehend There's no one that I can depend on Not even friends or family  Im so close to going off the deep end If I jump will I sink or swim Only time will tell And we'll know the truth when it all comes down who's really your friend They told me they care for me and would always be here for me Just to show me that I'm on my own In the end I'm all alone And it's been this way since I can remember They want to know why I have a bad temper The answer I have to give Is this is how the world made me And on a daily I'm going crazy  Thinking maybe it's just me If you need someone to talk to you can call on me and trust me that it stays between us two To many times I cried out to the wrong person Cuz the reason I'm hurting they just used it against me They say they love me and left me a-a@@*,,±;-nd now my heart feels empty Why won't they just let me Live my life the only way I know how If I knew them what I know now as a child I would slowed down Lord forgive me for my mistakes And for all the bad choices I make I know I do wrong But I'm just trying to be strong In a world where I feel all alone At night the streets I roam No uh?n5⁵By my lonely Just me and my thoughts Trying to figure it out Lord tell me what's this life all about And why am I here for ,Why must I she's tear's for It's a struggle A daily hustle Just to Survive and live I'm just trying to make it out But I don't know why when or how I can't do this By myself sometimes i just want to shout Asking for help But no one's there No one cares What am I supposed to do in a crazy world like this It's seems the older I get The colder it gets Then they want to ask why I walk around pissed with I chip on my shoulder the size of a boulder And not even a bulldozer can knock it Ive been getting high so long now That I don't know how to live sober They say God gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers And what doesn't kill you makes you stronger And with everything I been through I'm hoping it so that I can teach my kids To live better than I did For them I will take all of life's bulsht But what I would give For one day to be happy and free Just to see How it feels To live a life with out anything bad happening to me For real though Cuz shit Can get Real cold It's like The love that I give I get hate In return It doesnt Make sense And when will I learn That this The way life is But I won't change And be same As everyone else Even if it means I gotta be by myself Untill the end You can call on me I'll be your friend Even when you turn Your back on me That's just the way that I am