strength for another night

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painforagain feel like ive lost so much of myself don't feel like a standing tree just a hollow bark and I'm hoping this negative story takes a turn instead of my mind alone in the dark clock wont stop try to unwind feels like im shirt of remaining time stuck while the world is racing in my eyes as I watch minutes turn to days passing by and its like a countdown the way im losing every connection without even so much as a much if a goodbye hold on tight but the harder i squeeze the more i lose a my grip on this sad excuse of a life feels like a never ending fall into limbo when I look inside inner turmoil turning to torment even the brightest times feel like trying to see on a cloudy moonless night probably wouldn't matter if anyone bothered checking up cuz ya know I'd just lie and say im doin fine I know I need to turn it around cuz I'm just so tired been thru enough of this aint no wild ride when it feels like im alsways slipping makes for an inpossible climb most of the world to get thru the day steering into ignorance with closed eyes yet nobody is living in some kind of lya blissful life all shit filled lies wasted so much already dammit someone please pass me back some of the unappreciated time shit only seems to get harder with each passing night to keep myself willing to see another days morning light went thru the pain of detox gettin sick drown in sweat while i cried losing even motivation to leave in suicide just as the tears finally started to dry no rope but my hands felt tied while i was left for another guy who in another state he already left behind a kid and a fuckin wife then all I'm getting is news my little sister jumped from the mother fuckin 205 idk if I'd ever seen that girl frown n yet the world create enough hell to make her want to take away that light up a room ability that she had in her smile in shock so numb i couldn't even feel worried about my lack of emotion for awhile til i held those ashes in my hand n finally i broke down like an abandoned child all i know is hse deserved more than wishing for a cut short life and damn what have I even done with minell just even more wasted time and ive grown far too accustomed to all the goodbyes and everyone severing ties. tired of wearing th ae fake ass smiles I know I'm not alright with this state of mind keep on for that one day I finally feel that for the ones like Hailey I have enough strength to keep pushing til I'm on the other side and feel even the smallest part of my life was even worth the fight

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