But fuck them all!

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But fuck them all! I have to remember how I's stucked From that gift for long term of my life Where I've spent just all my money Everyday and in the air! Crack time,so I hate this type of life,but I remember very well... I was supposed to going every day To get my dope... Of course,I've worked just to support My diller,and not more! I was so young and bad girl,mad. I was working just for them not for myself! I hate hate hate that time! You know, my friend,I feel me Really great today, because I can work and stay without system! nothing more believe in oh yeah,and nothing I supposed to... nobody, nowhere...oh... yeah... I wanted to kill myself but not today when you've left me home alone without any cup of money,without any chance for dope... I was really expired... And now I am not trying to get the coke, Because I don't need it, Just I don't want to get this Fucking crazy marathon again Where I can win or do nowhere! Only the aggressor stays inside myself! And I don't think that it's for me the best Way, because I'm sure that I can work and live without that Dirty and expensive sort of relaxation With someone else or go somewhere. no power, no energy,no money... I had no thoughts in my mind. For one time I've been feeling, Like I was almost not more there, However,in some different world, And I don't know where. But I was wondering, when I woke up,oh my god! It was some really good, Amazing time and maybe also My little Life must change The way I do it everyday For example,to get some careful luck, But maybe more... I don't know where but it seems The next week,or next day It should be better! I'm going to change location yeah! I will not more hearing from my mama Any additional confines, Restrictions or any prohibition in my life. I am big enough to be able do I want! It was for for four or five weeks ago But I remember every second when you Left me just alone, without no more. I was dying cuz I was crying so much, But it was nobody with me! My money finished, like my friends. And therefore,I was feeling me so bad. So f****** bad... I thought at first moment: I don't want to live, it would be better If I've been already dead... I try to sleep, I wanted so much but My depression didn't want to go,or to Leave me completely alone... My happiness,I was asleep And I didn't hear how you call me... I was sleeping like a little baby... And that time when I was waking up, It's was feeling strong enough inside Myself,a lot of strength and Acceleration almost inside My mind, just everywhere... There was something,like Engine and racing game inside myself. A horse power,or maybe motivation!? I don't know but I was happy too much I was so much weak, but I've survived. I don't know how,but something So strong Just struck me as odd, that's all. exact medical just forget about it ... once upon a time,or somewhere... I gonna hate,hate,hate and throw away you gonna nothing get from me by this fucking cold and rainy day just everybody, everyway, and without any additional fun,or questions, because my life is not your game!!! I gonna push away, like a dust,dirt,grime, all the fucking idiots from my life,like in a pocker club by the playing,by this weekend... everything,and everyone who wants to cross my line,my way and my new and independent delights,my creative area it was Shit enough...in my life and by that time...by the way! come on! the inlet's already closed,let's close the gate!!! it's my game,by the way! No more money left,no more lend, no more loans I gonna be foremost another way,it seems to be foreclosure🤐 The fucking drugs&debts just turn me on... It's not so simply to pay your dues when you are still indebted for some things I need to get my money back i need a right solution and the best conclusion For a starting point For New country & my new life my new dreams for future in my mind, everytime... they are still alive...

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