Gramps

I'm Hurt Inside now that my Gramps died shi spiraling out of control every day watching time tick away I have a shirt with his face for remembering him by I know I shouldn't be down and all he'd want me to be happy and move on, stay strong but I can't deny this pain I'm feeling inside, yes you died and you thought you were going to be a great but that wasn't even my baby, all the things I didn't get to say before you left this place, gramps I'm still trying with tear drops rolling down my eyes, all these relationships are aching my heart as I watched everyone tear me apart, so now I hide singing this song I'm Hurt inside now that you're not here to talk me through life, shi is spiraling out of control and I don't know why, Every day I sit and watch and pray for better day's I always look at your shirt saying that I'mma be a better you, I just wish you could've stayed Sometimes I get back up on my feet, Trying so hard to accomplish my dreams, but these thoughts and struggles I gotta deal with knock me down to my knees how can I be something If I can't succeed I know I'm good at this, I'm still learning how to live without you in my life, And yeah I know you'll always be in my heart pushing me far, but I can't take ahold of my gifts because I feel like I'm not good enough I don't fit in how did you manage to get things done, How did you manage to find love, seems like It's a curse for me they're always shoving me out the door making me bleed, truth be told I try to run back saying please but they dgaf until I found the one Hailey, I wish you could've met her she makes me happy, and One day you'll have grandbabies, we'll visit your grave give you flowers and go on about our ways, I'm hurt inside still to this day, but I have her to cure me and make me feel free, even though I still miss hearing you say Son you'll make me proud someday and I will I'll keep my promise to you and my father and mother, I'll be something and reach for the stars one way or another I'll fight for this even if I'm starring at defeat I wont ever back down again y'all keep me going and I'm so thankful for everything that comes my way teaching me lessons to become a better man In I'll always look up to my idols and be like them, one day I'll have a daughter and son I can tell them all about our stories and how we fought through every storm, Just to get to the end and find peace within I love you gramps R.I.P Tim