I hate being alone but I hate people being with me so if I push you away I’m sry try not to miss me. Sry I missed your call baby I’ve been busy I was trying to find myself and lately it’s been tricky. I sped away from my old self doing 90 in a 60. It’s been a hard life so much pain from the same sharp knife. People stab you in yo back and they won’t think twice even your own blood most of my family done lost my love. I ain’t ever really learned how to trust. Thought I was back on track but lately I’ve been fucking up. Trying to take away my pain getting high it’s messing with my brain. Watched my brother die it messed with my soul crazy that he went he was only two years old. I remember laying on the floor sleeping in the cold. If you my bro then I ain’t changing up I’m sticking to the code. My eyes are dry I ain’t sheared a tear since the day my brother died. I just want someone I can trust that won’t leave every time I fuck up. I hate being alone but I hate people being with me so if I push you away I’m sry try not to miss me. I don’t want to put people in the make of my misery all I have is my self ain’t nobody ever care for me, I don’t need you I don’t need you to believe in me.