A Decade In Stockholm When I think about the time I spent with you I punish myself the same way you used to do Couldn't do one thing right by you Had to lie and hide the abuse Hide the bruises, deny it for you But then, I remember the magic too When at first I was so seduced by you The electricity between us two I fell to my knees, worshipped you like a king Even after you, ya took everything Your love eventually dissolved into hatred All of a sudden made me pay for it Had to erase the nights we danced, the dream The passion, the flames, the heat and the steam Perfect painting gutted, as I screamed How could you do this and what do you fucking mean?! How could I ever explain? The bombsite we turned into You thrived on my pain And made the claim, I did the same And you always find some way to place blame The passionate moments glisten like a treasure Intense emporium of twisted pleasure But after ten years, half locked in a room I had to erase the night we made love under the moon Forget how you whispered I glowed in pink and gray My small nude body on full display I had to cancel when I whispered I'd never leave you You swore I did it just to deceive you But it was us I had to end with a kiss Summertime sadness, as you're dismissed I can still hear that last you were so pissed And your violence is something I won't ever miss Still, my mind sits in so much agony even now I manage to miss you, then I wonder how?! Your voice is still in my head so loud I see every face, but you'll always stand out in the crowd As this curtain closes, the damage done I don't think either of us prospered or won And I shed one final tear in the rain The dream is over, but oh my God; the agony, the pain These days and nights are all now the same I don't think I'll ever get it all out of my brain I defeated you, but part of me will always remain Your Angel Negra, drenched, wet and insane Crying on my knees, purplest of rain Teardrops, a Scarlett stain