Addiction Calling Me

Yo, it's been a long road just to get here But now I'm collapsing under pressure and fear Spent years tryna make it, climbing up from pthe pit But these demons inside me are starting to grip The addiction, it calls me, it's got me by the throat I try to ignore it but it's got me on a rope Thought I left this behind when I got on the stage But the pain and trauma remains from my teenage days I need a way out before Been trying to hold it together but I'm losing my grip Feeling like no one understands the pain that I'm in All these eyes on me but I'm caving from within Part of me's screaming out for help and release But my pride keeps me quiet, scared of seeming weak I know I can't do this alone, I'm finally seeing It's time to be humble and admit I need healing Some days I wonder if this struggle will ever end But I gotta keep hope alive and not pretend So here I am reaching out, no longer masking my hurt It's time I get the help I need before things get worse The demons, they follow me, haunting my dreams at night Whispering lies that plunge me back into the fight Tell me I'm worthless, a failure, it's my fault Dragging me down to the darkness I thought I had halted Part of me knows it's the addiction talking in my ear But when you're at rock bottom it's hard not to hear Those voices telling me I'll never be free From the pain and emptiness that's consumed all of me I put on a front like everything's good But the struggle continues and the hurt never ends Sometimes I wonder if this is just who I am If I'm destined to lose to the darkness within But deep down I know that's the addiction lying again Trying to justify itself, poison my pen There's still hope I can beat this if I learn how to cope And stop trying to walk this road alone So I gotta reach out, stop living this mask Admit I have fallen but know I can rise back The road will be long and the process slow But if I stay patient and keep hope aglow Find strength in my loved ones and learn to believe That change starts from within me if I choose to heal It's time to break free and leave the past behind Reclaim my life from the demons I find The journey begins today, I'm asking for light To guide me from darkness and into the bright leaning