Variety of thought My mind is dirty Still hearing voices Feeling so low frequency getting Lower Taking my life shouldn't be the option It's better to take all this proscription No matter how depressed I'm I try to compress and Opres all this thought Thinking without any hope Had to take precautions Then I said to myself I'm the God of my life Leave it or take it I'm so stronger than this I'm feeling lazy and crazy It's all like Fancy Gloriously relocated to a new residents All they did was show me love and i found the real version of me Pain eating me up don't feel pitty for me I know everything will be fine Anxiety and depression really sucks i swear to God the pain picking me up can't continue hopping and counting on all this pills to be fine Finding happiness and smile even when I'm down and i said I'm so strong joy is the richest success My mummy really tried for me to complete high school The system is highly corrupt Said I'm the youth and leather of tomorrow Sadly i asked what about today I'm done with high school And I'm still jobless Mummy felling so hopeless She was told education was the key to success hopping i will get a job after high school She was broke So I had to wait I know how you struggle sending me to study It's like we are in a jungle Only the strong survive My vibes so incredible Started doing music Just to make a leaving and mummy proud It's funny how you criticize me I'm just human trying to make it Was diagnosed with stage 4cancer and the doctor told me i was going to die hopeless mummy Poor mama It's okay i will go I know how you feel I was everything that matters to you Yes I know Don't cry mumy be strong for me It's by the mercy of God Rick~Simpson oil saved me I took the risk and today I'm fine God is Good mummy Nineteen minutes later After lunch mummy had a nap and never woke up Oo no i cried Nothing hurts when mummy is getting older and yet you can't help Hell yeah others said i used you for rituals just to get Rich I went ill when massage arrived me i know what we went through together before you died They couldn't help now they throwing word at me Taking sucide was all that came to my mind Without minding what the consequence will be i lost my mummy and now they said i killed you mummy All the memories still fresh Can't take it anymore Had a knife right by my side Knelling down crying out Then I found my self laughing It's confusing to me Then I knew mom wants me to strong Straight away i relocated That was how I found peace leaving Hooping each day I love you mama i will make it I can make it It's not easy but it's okay If can can not Then can can can Rest in peace Mummy they couldn't give you peace now they telling me accept my condolences asking you to rest in peace This scar in my heart really chopping me up I now have a new car mummy The system failed me I decided not to fail myself This a rich of pain My joy is the price it's Okay at least I'm still alive I have hopes believe in yourself and find peace withern you start all over like a new born baby don't be afraid to try Bet you success is calling you Just lie on your bed meditate about everything Don't lie to yourself accept the fact and move on with life