I been on this broken lonely road for way to long I always pushed u away when u tried to tag along I did and said a lot of things that i knew were wrong all the back and forth it's almost like we playin pong this burden that i bare is just for me and for me alone I promise that I'll be right back Ill do it on my own don't gotta wait for me but don't delete me out your phone just give me the time I need to learn and grow I gotta learn to focus on myself its hard to do. if I cant even depend on myself then why should you just take a minute to think it about you'll see it's true I can't keep running to you when im feeling blue. I need to get some therapy and maybe join a group another source for me to use so that i can re coup so u don't have to be the only thing that gets me through to get me through the fire even though you wanted to. I learned a lot about myself and I have made a mess I keep using the wrong methods to deal with stress Ive learned alot in recovery you would be impressed a fresh start at another life now im playing chess the first move is to start off with ur mental state so u can deal with the stressors that life will always make healthy coping mechanisms to back up ur plays cuz life will constantly check you until it's fucking mate. the next step is to try to have a little faith whether it's in god or yourself gotta find that place you gotta count on one or the other to keep you safe when the rest of the world goes to shit all you got is faith then you gotta set yourself up with some long term goals how you gonna get somewhere if there's nowhere to go. that's one thing that you can do one thing u can control and meditatings good for your mind body and ur soul.