the blocked doorway

Doorway The memories won't drift away the times we had will never fade and I have so much more to say but certain things get in the way Disaster's always knocking at my door   She took my life away She's taken everything She took my heart away She's ruined everything (Chorus 1)   I cant have things that make me smile and apparently I cant hide anything that I feel inside but that's okay I'll find a light Disaster's always tearing down my door   She tries to heal my pain but only makes it grow She tries to stop the rain I guess she'll never know (Chorus 2)   Maybe there's still a chance and this odd circumstance will soon lay down to rest and we'll be fine at last   She tries to heal my pain but only makes it grow She tries to stop the rain I guess she'll never know She took my life away She's taken everything She took my heart away She's ruined everything She's ruined everything/I guess she'll never know What you did you came into my life like A thief in the night stealing things that were important to me your actions destroyed my ability to know the difference between love and hate my ability to know when I'm in a bad situation the things you did turned me into someone I didn't ask to be you took my choices away before I knew they were mine to have I despise you there were so many opportunities to make it right opportunities to not do it at all It fucks me up at times when I see the emotional and mental manipulation that was at play the amount of power I allowed you to have over me at that moment and as we can see in the years to follow who the fuck are we supposed to tell when the ones we look to for advice and protection are the ones causing the pain and as someone who can talk from both perspectives sometimes I wish you could have been like the stranger the difference between you and him is if I see him again one day he wouldn't even notice me but you it wasn't what if it was when and like a light switch when you were around I would lose all ability to process the situation my body shuts down and you do what your told you hear the lies and learn to repeat them you even taught me some like when you fight back so you do nothing in hopes it will be over quicker it sucks to look around and want to say something but seeing how much those around you loved you knowing the problems it would make in the family I know you no longer have A physical hold on me but you will always be in the darkest parts of my mind no matter how much I heal Incision I appreciate your honesty but that is not what bothers me Your split second decisions Leave me with these incisions I can tell you something that will leave you guessing...   -Pour the salt on the wound and hear me scream in agony Pour the salt on the wound and watch me lose my dignity Pour the salt on the wound and see me die instantly Pour the salt on the wound and let me be- (Chorus)   You depreciate from apathy And still I give you empathy Despite your alarming intentions I am left in reclusion I can tell you something that will leave you guessing...   -Chorus-   -Don't leave me-(3x) -Come back to me-(3x) Don't run from me, don't lie to me, don't sever me, don't try to be, the only one who has to feel all alone   -Chorus-(2x)   So let me be Just let me be