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I am not sure I can be the person every once is expecting me to be they all want me to hold on, but personally, my insides will never change depending on what people think. they got ahold of me like a cat on a string, and notably, I'm captured like a caged animal never to be set free don't they see my life is already fucked up don't they see when they give me more bad news it just makes me wanna give up im fighting with all my might but my wrists are tied I'm beginning to think I'll never see the light I'm ment to be tormented i 6 scared for my future, although everyone says I'm a trooper if you could show yourself to me I could understand more clearly if you could show yourself to me maybe I'd want to be a new me but till then, I'm stuck drowning in a mess of shit it's like quick sand, and I'm buried up to my hips my existence is falling behind I have no more spark to shine I'm depleting and noone is seeing I'm hurting inside noone is reaching and bleeding for anyone I can't take the sorrow and grieve anymore its eating my brain and my mind is sore no more open doors only closed angry and upset, you can bet I'm filled with regret. Living like this will only make me want a cigarette, so let the smoke fill my lungs so there is no room for air kicked down so low I can't feel my heart anymore if you could show yourself to me I could understand more clearly if you could show yourself to me maybe I'd want to be a new me I'm not sure day to day who I am anymore I have lost sight of what's right and wrong no longer I'm self distracting and I can't blame noone else anymore I'm crying and dieing but don't feel pain anymore how did I loose what life I had built just to sit on a stack of guilt I can't rekilt the lord had no words for me I can't handle the person I guess I'm desperately destin to be down to the shoes I wear on my feet. I'd rather walk in someone's shoes than feel anymore grief can't they see I'm already knocked down to rock bottom has everyone forgotten my soul is now rotten ill never be forgivin for the sins I'm implementing I'm done fucking living for everyone I wanna live for me but instead I'm dieing for them slowly but quickly if you could show yourself to me I could understand more clearly if you could show yourself to me maybe I'd want to be a new me if you could show yourself to me I could understand more clearly if you could show yourself to me maybe I'd want to be a new me