I wish i knew, what i could do, when all the darkness starts coming through. i run and i hide and i scream and i cry but the demons inside are with me all the time.. talk with your friends, reach out for help, maybe prescriptions will fix all the hell they tell me to stop, say im hurting myself but I been suicidal since i was 12... every night im laying in bed, got all these thoughts drowning me in my head, Im not enough, wish i were gone, such a bad mom, but nothing is wrong so whats going on? writting these songs to try and get through, i dont know who i am what the hell should i do? smoking all day to dull all the pain but im feeling insane like im losing my brain and the weight of the worlds hitting me like a train.