im manic, im panicked, i just cannot stand this, im lying and trying to hide that im disguising, im fine... I swear im really fine.. not like my life is on the line.. I never thought id live this long, wonder why the pains so strong it just keeps going on feeling like i cant go for long. Why cant you just let me be. my demons are surrounding me.. feel tired cuz i never sleep lethargic cuz i just cant eat. they say lets try another pill, make sure that you get feeling well but i still just feel so fucking ill im sick of climbing up this hill.. my whole life has just been one big scheme, i swear everything is out to get me if it dont stop im gonna scream in society i just keep resisting.. cant tell if this is real or im dreaming but jourmey told me dont stop believing..