almost gone

so alone almost gone do they know they gotta know this hurt I feel I deal with this shit on the daily don't ask where I b I been in my head lately fake bitch doesn't care anyway sometime I wonder should I drift far to a better place line on the table seems to nunb the pain that shit works better than novicaine judge me bitch here's my shoes then u tell me which side of the nose u choose my family there old news I can't turn around not that I want to my teen years I prayed to God I wasn't here what is easy fuck don't ask me seems like everything is so fucken complicated im stuck same place everyday I can't seem to make away my crystal for help our just pointless words no one hears they only come by if they wanna pill fuck that fuck them never again day after day I sit alone I miss my dad god I want him home rest in peace mom life's a bitch with u gone Timmy 5 years seems so long hang in there we gonna get through this storm my kids I miss them with every breath in Me most of my prayers is they come find Me so much on my mind that bitch so heavy how they expect bme to stay sober if they keep trying me they took everything thatbmet shit go me my kids calling another bitch mommy im hurting externally nothing seems to help that same demon that's been following me since a kid won't leave a week before Kaleb stabbed me he was in my dreams flying towards my head that bitch cursed Me my memaw always said I was here for a reason I feel it in my soul he won't defeat me he's tried to steel my soul 3 times in my sleep... scream out to go's even though u can't speak all this negativity I gotta change get away quit hanging on to people places things nothings ever gonna be the same