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here we go I really hope you can listen put it down like the drug habit each fraction downward spiral priorities rivals around the track last lap put it off with a smile have nothing left in me and it's been first in a while since competitively I beat the odds stacked against me I'm not one for competitions I ain't got f*** all to prove all I know is she you you she anything anymore stop calling her names what the f*** is the matter with you wasting time with excuse point at yourself in the mirror if respects wealthy and you see clearer walk my tight rope uneasy belittle balance it's been a while I'm off practice oh s*** I slipped no going back from this no net to save me hit the ground at Mach f****** 80 death bed survivor never miracles required pronounced dead for a while helicopter lands without a plan hard already stopped on route guess it's sad to say a broken heart really does kill you breaks you down to the point where you can't even chew your own food at the nicest restaurant with the best view baddest b**** beside or in front of you maybe even behind I don't know if you're that type but it's evident while I speak now not proud living in the past pessimist profound popping anything to lose my frown like if I could only play hide and seek with the problems that haunt me I'm good at being distant when I don't want anybody to want me you know sometimes it hurts when you look around reevaluate no ones laughing with me infact the truth hurts deep such a cost full of pain but and I'll say that lightly behind the closed door is a monster inside of me the fact that I'm not there to read them stories my Little Queen and King I never thought how much they meant to me during my binge why would I throw away the only important things to me just to get high like I paid for a bag glass pipe through my f****** life away I even paid for it right can you believe that garbage paid a goof for a bag of some glass to smoke what a joke threw it away never looked back though family taken with my ex she's a smoke feen vape machine dumb little legs spread clean never had any attention from her parents growing up and it seems evidently visible I was eating craft dinner she was capping on Bombay sizzlers videos of her taking a s*** plop hits the water 280 bucks hits her bank truthful nonfiction I know you stank I meant to say I know you're a skank off topic for a little bit I blink and my life flashes before my eyes there's no time to cry I'll even note saying I slipped but I f****** died but my own hands no thought less no thought anymore man close your hands matter of fact close your eyes swallow pity sorrow and neglect counting one by one till a hundred Vyvanse that you have we start get out of the cloud with your mom back on reality so profound pessimist at best you have a passenger test never punctual time is locked up adding up fast doesn't stop for any n**** any new guy any white any black any Asian I don't think I'm saying anything instead she'll understand that you can see relate to so I put it down in the beat maybe then I can prove maybe I can get through to you too take a chance move and make it choose the best way to be honest with me and my buddy who's not even sure if you have any other this weekend and I will be a father and I will be my last email check and see if you have any questions or you can take a look at the you tube and I will be a father and I will be a father and I will be a father and I will come back in a tent for me