Healing pt2

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I wake up in the morning and I look at myself in the mirror wondering why am I hearing this world do I have a long hair in this world I don't know who I am anymore I don't know if I want to be this broken person that I've always been told that I am I don't know if I can trust anymore when people break that trust it's really hard to gain that back and my past life I wasn't nothing I wasn't nobody and I don't want to be a nobody anymore I just want to be happy I just want to care I don't know if I want to sit alone at night in the bathroom and just bawl my eyes out I don't know what I want to do anymore I don't know how to feel it's difficult life is f***** up they say life is supposed to be perfect but no life is just a bunch of bull crap I can't see how people sit here and talk about me like I'm nothing when I was something but they literally talk down to me verbally abused me physically abused me I don't know if I'll ever heal from that I want to heal but I just don't know how everybody say I'm a bad person but no they don't know the real story about me about who I am they just know bits and pieces about where I came from and I don't want them to know about me cuz they don't f****** deserve it at all I want to sit here and look at this can't handle the pain anymore I can't handle the stress just want everything to be over with I just want to cry ball up in a f****** blanket and cry. they've been trying to take all my energy but I'm just trying to do me I took my time so make sure I win but I don't know why because I am broken I don't want to be broken anymore I just want to break away break away I just want to fly away I just want to bury the pain listen my heart don't know what to do with all of this pain should I heal or should I forgiven forget do the worseyou can do to me the damage is already been done over and over again

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