I’m back and forth in my head, it’s like a battle of thoughts, till one ends up dead, no matter how hard it fought, what happened to me, I got rid of the stress, but it kicks in the door, like getting raided by feds, it was simple before, now it looks like a mess, living feels like a chore, it don’t feel like my best, I know I’m better than this, but how do you break through, do I tighten my fist, or crack open a cold brew, then I think to myself, how do you let go, do you reach out for help, or stay buried in wet snow, look where you been, and look where you got to, remember you’re blessed, like after a ha choo, pick up the pen and start venting this shit, it’s like I’m bleaching my brain, when I’m cleansing this shit, I remember the past, is it creeping back in, do I tender the cash, or fight from within, you know nothing comes easy, it seems harder to please me, I wish I could go back, to biggie and eazy, those were the days, when nothing can phase me, now it feels like a maze, and the exit escapes me, I’m fighting the days, when I should be embracing, I’m sick of the nights, where my heart keeps on racing, now I swallow a pill, to reset the pacing, enough is enough, look at the great things, girl in my life absolutely amazing, loves me to death, carried away with a hazing, JFK to AUA, villas on white sand is how we play, beautiful daughters I raise the right way, chain on my neck val-ue 20 K, came a long way, didn’t do it the wrong way, set myself up, left the ball on the fairway, gotta stay patient, in times that I’m facing, is it success, or happiness that I’m chasing, take a deep breath, when you’re put to the test, and try to think less, to slow the beat in your chest, but not with the flow, I’d rather spray out these bars, and run laps on the track, like I just ripped some blow, I can show you my scars,