depression is pressing my silence all my life I tried to fight it only way to express it put it on this page when I'm writing my thoughts loud as a riot all these drugs keepin them quite but how much time is it buying cauz my mind can be frightening it's scary ho I can hide it scary how love turns to volience so don't say it because you probably lieing demons havung a party my hea like they all was invited making my thoughts so misguided now ima rol it and lit it pop 2 of then now im taking flight with no pilot barly open my eyelids wondering why haven't I die yet looking up. will this ever end. guess god not decided I'm not blaming you for what is did could have showed me some guidance or showed me somthing elce other than get back up and keep fighting show me some light when I'm blinded or help me back on my path when I fall off and can't find it lord knows I been trying all my life I been grinding with out shit to show for the time spent people say life is so priceless then why I'm so high Iookm lifeless it like every day inwork the night shift the way I'm stuck in this darkness never though life would be like this guess I have to deal the cards I get trying to flip it and make hits cauz it the only way to explane the shit explane the the shit that's hard to do every time I tried to write I thought of you never thought I'd be here singing the blues we was once one and now we 2 you toom the knife and put it all the through when all I really wanted was somthing that true and that what you said but you never proved back of my mids these thought are tattooed 11