getting it

this life tells us all kinds of things you will feel it in your bones, that's when you know it's right if it's wrong, though I'm cold stuck in this fucking world alone your a stone how am I supposed to let you go who would have known I'm fed up with life's bullshit tore down from all the gritty shit believe it it would take 2 seconds to join you but then I'd leave other people to feel what I feel it's a battle every day swore up and down I would never be this way I was wrong it was going to be life long so I sit and weep and sing a sad song forgive me for I have sinned the only thing left in my lighter is flint never will my flame burn soon the court will adjourn then guess what it's my turn they say keep your head up they say watch for the signs keep it 100 and never cry i feel like it's gunna be fine but you don't know what I live through and you don't know what love I feel are you dumb are you idiotic neurotic psychotic your there has no topic so stop it find me a way to numb the pain stay in your lane better not get in my way I'm doing 160 on the freeway saying today's my day but then that little voice in my head screams out that little girl needs you don't fuck with the system drop a piston be that addition see what he seen and breath what he breathed. l unleashed my motivation pull from the darkness took a deep breath and moved to a new process. life doesn't seem to be what it is. but lately it all seems like a dream I wanna wake up and it be the way it was. I was wrong it was going to be life long so I sit and weep and sing a sad song forgive me for I have sinned the only thing left in my lighter is flint although I got time I can't help but wonder when it's gunna be my time times up it's over I don't really know how to take it in talk it up wait for the new beginning I ain't winning more like losing and choosing to be stuck in the fade 🎶