these walls

i built these walls to keep the world out cuz i couldn't bear wit the battle wars within myself pain has trapped me through tall walls now im alone in this abyss of tears dropping in mind i just want peace i just wish i had a regular life like any normal kid at school damn i hate when people make fun of kids who have disabilities but ill motivate those kids who have adhd and any atisim kid going through what i went, see people say oh your dumb because your autistic but i see it as a gift they can't think how i think and they can't do what i do im too smart two steps ahead Tear down these walls for me Stop me from going under You are the only one who knows I'm holding back i was growing through pain crying alone in the rain now i know this was not in vain in the quiet place there's hidden thoughts about me not wanting to suffer anymore again so i scrapped i begged i pleaded now i changed now anger is my defense fighting back at any cost don't matter if my life at risk i got faith i got god with me i don't fall i climb that mountain i don't give up i keep going Understand I was made to suffer in this life everytime I showed kindness they shoved it in my face I guess they thought it was a game Just because I'm kind doesn't mean i can change my ways of being nice and polite to rude and mean they doubted me just like doctors doubted i was gonna learn how to read and write being special needs is hard because everyone has something to say about it til i say it's a gift of mine because now nobody does what i do nobody has the talents i posses And if you knew what those scars did to me crying alone but they won't stop me from fighting back