Well I guess I'm trying.. Whats the point when ur half way to dying Flying is where ur at the top but ur only option is falling im crying all the lying people dying why keep trying i think ive had enough all the vals im taking only temporarily stop the aching im sik of faking happyness happiness is so far away lonliness just a darker shade of grey where ur hole can soon lead to ur grave try be brave try be brave try be brave just try get through 1 more day just try get through 1 more day all this pain just wont go away and its my fault noone else's its my decay its my decay im fucked but its ok yeh its ok just walk away just let me be just fade into the distance forget about my existence dont call dont ring dont contact me just let me be just let me be just let me be im fucked but its ok.... the devils got me hes wrapped up inside me ill never be free wont let me see wont let me be who i used to be and there's nothing u can do to stop him and hes sucking what lifes left in me thers no light inside no pride nowhere to hide im his til i die but im fucked and its ok probably best to walk away.... my eyes are black should have slept today at this rate chrismas only 2 sleeps away but im not fazed heads in a daze im fucked and i wana stay this way these drug benders make me not remember the problems i have in my life put that shit on pause gimme glass and halfballs and ill continue off my course of course this my decision yeh the way im living is it living or is it killing unwillingly pushing everyone away guilt the devil causes makes me feel a certain way so i puff and i puff just to escape but going round and round like a rat in maze but im ok.......... Do I have to explain All of this pain and all the people I've driven away I'm a headcase and there's no point in u stayin In my head I'm complaining The strain on my putting on my body it'saching What I'm doing in my head my mental state is breaking. How long can I keeping on doing this I missed this week's sleep and I shouldnave it's not good for me but keep having'it can't take no more but when I say no more before I know it I'm out the door off to score what I can't afford I'm paying tonight It's a stain on my life And I can't get it right I'm losing the fight like a bird with no flight like im blind of my sight and it's the shade in the night Like shadows, addiction it follows u, the pain it brings is horrible, it haunts and taunts when ur most vulnerable, think ur low, It's keeps going u Think ur done It keeps going still Ur at the end yeh Now ur life is gone All Ur friends left ur wife is gone everything u built has been swept away, Ur not ok There's noone to calm u down, look around there is no help for you it's Just urself U and addiction Something missing???