this girl that keeps coming into my life and building up these plans and raising my hopes just to crush them bc no matter what I seem to do it's never good enough, n then she finds anything and everything that I do wrong to blame me n to use against me in order to leave once again. to just run back inna few fuckin weeks. smh. ~fake it to make it fake it tell you make it that's what they say, well I must've made it, cuz i been faking it almost everyday, tell me whats all at stake, ive made one to many mistakes this has become my fait, i know im not a saint,. but ive tried to own up to my mistakes, i even apologized for the pain ive made, you got the same cards i was delt, thats why i thought you'd understand all the ways i felt, i just needed some time to find myself, i needed more you gave me less, i never thought you'd make me feel so worthless, you make me feel so nervous, was this your whole purpose, im tired of writing these verses, im sorry, i tried to be nothing less than perfectness, picture perfectness to fit your services, youre still picture perfect, youre still always worth this shit, hope you know to me you'll always be worth it, shit truth is we could never work maybe we're cursed, maybe the truth is im just not much worth, like i said ive been told ever since birth, that im cursed since birth, that im not worth much worth, im sorry i tried to be perfect, truth is we could never work cuz you just wanted me to be a different person, fuck, im sorry im no longer at your service, show me whats beneath the surface, my lifes full of never ending battles, im tired of these constant rehearsals, im sorry i could never be perfect, i could never be what you wanted, its always why we constantly parted, i will forever be constantly haunted, you're all that i ever wanted, im sorry i cant be that for you, i cant even breath without you, my heart will stop beating without you, my heart started bleeding without you, my heart started beating when i found you, my heart started bleeding once left without you,