woke up and asked God why do I have to feel this way why oh why do I gotta feel so much pain I just want to change my selfish ridicules ways why God you can't u save me from this kind of way I'm never gonna be the same yeah I'm praying to god show me a new way of living and I'm trying to live and I can not die I was born to live that life I was raised be be that guy I was sword to never be the good guy I was brought up to be the spawn of hell born in that I was sworn in it and I was gone with it we all make mistakes But some will make worse mistakes why do we gotta live life this way why can't we just see that life will never be easy cause it will always just tear us down we gotta pick ourselves up backup off the ground and if we don't we gonna stay down we will not survive this But one day I promise you I'm gonna be that 1 who makes It's out this he'll forsaken world this place that God has made in a fast 7 days or it so they say God if you love me just show me the way yeah I'm been feeling some kind of way lately these days I'll just asked God to show me a different kind of way and he tells me son if you wanna be a different kind of a man then you best get into the word and try to change your ways I could never be a Bible thumping fake believer I can never be Some kind of sucker I could never be that kind of man that lives life that way I will love you God I will be saved I will go to church on them worst kind of days when i committed them un forgiving way so I ask for forgiveness on them days I put Put my life always on the front of the line for my loved ones for my brother's of this struggle cause I will die with a smoking gun on my waist like a cowboy from the trenches yes cause I will never be no some kind of b**** will always be the man who stands up for himself and the ones who struggle cause of the politics the corrupted governent I've been to h*** and back you already know so just give me a chance and I'll show the world yeah God show me how to change my ways I don't wanna be that guy who dies today God please show me how to live life for different ways is God I want my kids to know how real of a deal I was in life These ways are full of pain these ways we'll always be the same gotta change my ways got to be the best man I can be in the this life we live in each every day I just want to make my kids feel like I try my best but I don't want them to hate me no no no I will be a better kind of leader a better kind of man stand strong never be no kind of weak or soft or impossible to realize you done messed your whole life you lived you only get live one life so be yourxbest