this is for all the hearts I broke before I grew up. all this blood on my hands scares me shit less, have I done more good then evil, my demons tell me I deserve all my pain, that I'm getting my karma for my old ways. ~ bloody hands/amends darkness at my door knock knock on my door, knock knocking at my door, left the light running through the night, praying for, praying for, the mess that i left, when i left, had you guess, made you depress what a mess, that i brought, pay the cost, ooohh praying, left my life running through the night, praying for , praying for, the mess that i left, ohhh praying ohhh chose a promise, ohhh broke a promise, im sorry for the mess when i left, i never meant to make your heart break, now im praying, ohhhhh, now im stumbling, ohhhhh, ohhhh made a promise, ohhhhh, all this blood inside my veins, i need a savior to save me. this blood all over my hands, from the hearts i broke, it fears my bones, it shakes my soul, i know im not perfect but i never claimed to be, i know I've made mistakes you pushed the blame on me to many apologies thatll take, it'll probably contain me, searching philosophies that'll probably drain me, i know i did some things i can't take back, i know thats all in the past, i know i hurt you in the past but ive learned so much since way back, did things that made your heart crack, i know i made you so sad i hope you know i regret all that ive said tell I'm dead, i was young and i was dumb, and i was still learning what love was. i never meant to make you fall in love with me just for me to run.. i guess its just hard for me to open up, to believe im able to be loved so instead i run first, before they even get a chance to break my heart heart you may never forget all the horrible stuff, hope you can forgive its an affordable drug, wishing for way way less horrible stuff, wishin for some more supportable love, sorry hun will you resist my supportable hug, regrets eat away at me probable everyday, you're right, im to blame, i cant seem to face this shame, i cant even feel this pain, ive been trying to maintain, i know i made you ashamed, just give me a little grace, everyday i try to change, get a little bit better each day somedays are harder then others to acclaimed, im ashamed of all the pain, it gets harder to embrace, feels like im chained to this blood on my hands, i pray they give me grace, if i could take your pain, id put it in a suitcase,. then id throw it ona train, i didn't know now what i knew then, if i knew then what i know now,. id take everything and turn it around,. forgive me for my soul found comfort in chaos, adapted to people saying they love n takeoffs a pushed and shoved thinkin it would payoffs, knowing they'll run maybe its how i play it offs at least thats what my brain would told me i wish it would sometimes lay offs, no one said learning to love would be cakewalks,.. learning to loves is more like when illegal jaywalks i hope you know i regret all that ive said tell I'm dead, i was young and i was dumb, and i was still learning love, you may never forget all the horrible stuff, hope you can forgive its an affordable drug, wishing for way way less horrible stuff, wishin for some more supportable love, sorry hun will you resist my supportable hug,