i been waisting too much time too much I can never get back so much I have missed no being able to see my kids grow seeing yhe precious moments that they have i hate myself for tearing my family apart no else to blame but myself all this time i can get back feels like I'm stuck on repeat and every day I awke by myself stuck in the same hell created for myself so much time i can never get back if only you knew how much I i really want to escape this world and lay still in a permanent sleep but i know that I can never give up cause my kid's need me in this world