I have OCD and Anxiety

I have OCD and Anxiety I have Trets and do not forget that all of the obsessions that I have with killing myself and suicide I have a disability how do I live and how do I survive I do not feel alive but what has been keeping me awake from all of my and these tough times is my favorite teacher yeah, she keeps me happy, she makes me happy, she's so inspirational, and that is why I want to stay alive, yeah, she makes me want to stay alive and not end my life your my favorite teacher in the whole world and the school #love Mrs. Sworthout, best teacher ever