so much pain!!!!

so much pain when you look in my eyes I will cry but it feels like I died .so much pain when you get in my eyes I will cryed but it feel like I died.3 I'm so tired of wiping all these tears this is from the past 3 years. I thought about it it's got to go I can't trip up this no more it's my family though I love him well well I know they ain't go to hell. some new chapter in the book I got to have a different look. before you left me tell me be a man thanks brother man and figure it out the situation this believe it ain't no hesitation. tell me why you had to go I'm f***** up I can't see your face no more I love you man I miss you man you all I ever had my dadman. when I'm when I'm down now I can call you you the only person in my life to make s*** fall through.you was so fucking tru. last of all you should have been first I'm so f****** hurt when you left i got lost