don't push on me or I'll get to pressin talk to me and you gun learn a lesson all these nights n my bed wit depression thinkin would I be better up in heaven, no I don't know if that'll really work, but it's hard to see what I'm really worth, like do I really have a place on this earth or do I really deserve to be in the dirt now going off of what yall see it's sticking to me personally and I get to digging found out where they house is and where they livin, come real close like I'm speaking to children and leave yo body lifeless without the prison, they know he dead hut his body went missing, fleeing the scene in the shit im whippin, bullets flying so close to face they kissin, now I really gotta get to ducking n Dippin, one shot thru the back seat clip my spine wheel twistin n turnin this was my time Holy shit im guna be crashing but im fine tryin to stop the car but cant feel my feet opened the door quick rolled out the seat itry to stand back up take one to the knee crawling back away I just cough n bleed coughing it up, swallowing lungs, I've done my deed, (flips coin) tossing it up, following luck, god damn this greed, crossing my heart, I fall in the dark, I scream in the void, offing the gun, ongoing blood, my life I avoid, I talk to myself when I'm lonely at night, thinking my best friend is a kabar knife, 12 inch of fun and death inside my eyes man i really wanna scream that I wanna die i spent all those nights lonely, tears I've cried, saying that you love me, that life has died, suicide is wrong but for you I tried, all I do is fade away into darkness the task of life is always the hardest, the neck is weak spot so I mark it, so bored of this shit I sit and spark it, look at me puppy eyes, I'm a target, bitch I don't give a fuck I sit and watch you scream why you so mad it's what you did to me? stab me in the back and then you watch me bleed if you know me well you would know I'd (scream) you feeling me, I'm feeling it, I'm ripping it up, algorithm concealing me, im shit outta luck, so you take the one thing I hold close to and crush, I stopped loving you early cuz you lost my trust, like you broke me and left, all those night thinkin bout what was said, laying down head up, or head off I wanna be dead, crossing my line and this town you will paint red, don't sit down and dont ever talk to me again, don't talk to me I don't want new friends, I just sit and speak to myself and i make amends then go in and come out without loose ends I speak to to the devil while 22s decend, grasp them both, see my demons and shoot them, one got away, ran on foot to pursue him, what the fuck am I doing my mind screws feel a bit loosened, I tell you the truth is, these are becoming a nuisance, aha, I have the solution, hypnotize myself, nah it's just a delusion, and illusion just to leave me with confusion. (where the fuck am I goin?)