my past life

jealous not...your time will come..that's what my momma told me...but she ain't here no more..to tell me what it means. my heart bleeds..my awful deeds..all those boundaries pulling me back...I cant turn a new page all these pages are blank..I dream of fighting my demons..but now my demons fight me...in real life this time..oh messiah help me man I wish I didn't pull the trigger he like man don do this..don don do this I stared in his eyes pulled it like phaw phaw his blood cries from my fingers say momma I killed someone and the murder weapon? it was your kitchen knife that'smy past life my past life..past life..my past life