yeah I was just a little girl not even 10 years old this story makes me curl it makes my blood run cold got my stomach in a twirl can't leave this shit untold but it makes me wanna hurl lemme tell you how it unfolds I was only 8 years when you made me tell lies didn't know how to face my fears so I closed my eyes was it one too many beers you're not the only guy but the first to draw my tears all this time I still don't know why you went and picked me cuz thats what you wanted dont know who I was gonna be now everyday I am haunted by all the fuckin memories my heart is exhausted but you don't wanna see couldn't just leave it be you broke me for awhile but I'm back on my feet broken pieces for a mile picked them up now I'm sweet had to learn my own style through the people I meet now ive got my own file from the pain I couldn't beat inpatient for a while sit down and take a seat here let's reconcile I've got ptsd yeah and borderline you really made me crazy so your help I decline dbt on the daily took away what was mine everyday been gettin rainy no I'm not doing fine problems catching up to me lately so pass me more wine can't deal with my issues you're a real fuckin monster it all started with you clearly have no honor grab my box of tissues this only made me stronger couldn't believe that shit continued glad it didn't for any longer you were supposedly a father but you broke that promise to me youre just a bother all you left me with were traumas so I turned to my mother told her what happened in my pajamas the shit she had to uncover would leave you with charges you should be the one to suffer while justice runs its courses I will only get tougher I've already moved on but I will never forget what you did to me was wrong hope it's something you regret it only made me strong no more time to be upset in my life you didn't belong forever owing me a debt you'll never meet my son it's your fault, it's not mine now what happened is done won't give u no more time what you did wasn't fun from the years of eight to nine i just wanted to run took away my sunshine the damage can't be undone now I'm closing those blinds my new life has begun I'm only on a rise just like the yellow sun the pain I had to numb by seeing all those men you broke me down once but you never will again at the end of this month I will be happy by then you really messed your chance to be in my life look at the circumstance you caused a lot of strife my pain was enhanced I even played with a knife I'm not scared anymore i miss that girl you killed her little heart you tore new one i had to rebuild forever closing that door