what it means

You don't know what it means to be a memory I can't erase the pain Gotta change my ways no matter the weather I go through the phase No I can only try to rearrange I can never say I let myself go sideways I'm stuck in my ways but I get to that stage And I get to the show and I get to get paid And I get to the show and I get to get paid Let it marinate if you motherfuckers kill me then fake I never thought it would be this great And I need a little bit of space and a page Its a lot of s**t on my mind but not on my mistake I just really want to be In this world full of hate Cause every day I was high and woke up in my mistake I know that one thing I told you is a lot more than your fate My mission is to get paid So this is where I will be late