Melancholy heart❤️‍🩹

Looking for myself somewhere I can’t find it The insecurities I hide behind em Nobody missing me All my friends they been lying feel free in my dream Last night I was flying The sad reality that I’m too sad be crying Swear all I can do is mess up a good thing Told me to settle down go to school Rapping is a good dream Don’t wanna leave now But there’s nothing more I can bring I’m up in the clouds When I come down I get mood swings Hurtin deep inside Don’t know why I can feel good things It be shaky and I ain’t gotta do things All I see is red don’t bother me with no mood ring Not sure what happened then But I know I jus screw up things Sit back get high forget the past Smoking all the sorrow never last Try to think thru all the confusion Mixing up reality with delusion Hoping for a win really bad lately I’ve been losing Good for nothing I don’t know I’m real good at foolin Don’t even got no ice on me but lately I’ve been coolin Not many people here now about abusin I’m out of place I need more space Can’t think alone I’m too ashamed I don’t feel the same Been feeling lame Don’t feel no depressing But I’ll take your pills anyways Waiting for the Sunny days Til then the rain can still stay What’s the point of trying If I now the outcome anyway Money don’t help the pain I’m tired of trying to do it right Let’s be I don’t wanna be awake Hit my cake bar Driving my race car Boom boom crash my car