sometimes

[verse 1] sometimes I just wish I wasn't the boy who would get picked on beaten humiliated and torn apart not accepted by anyone rejection is my only fear 1.They told me I have no emotions 2.What do I feel inside then 3.If all I do it try and try 4.Why was I made this way 5.If all I do is cry 6.Every day I struggle 7.I feel like im in trouble 8.I wish I had a double 9.I keep living in this bubble 10.I want to be solid like gold 11.And maybe just a little bold 12.My life feels so cold 13.Almost as if someone stole my soul 14.As if everyone that come to my life is a troll 15.I want to be happy that is the goal 16.Yeah that the goal Verse 2 1.I am not what it seems I’m special 2.Over ten diagnosis on my name 3.Doctors told my mom I couldn’t  write 4.I still don’t know how to write my name 5.Or make sense of what day it is today 6.I guess that is okay 7.My day is rainy and gray 8.I live with an intellectual delay 9.I start shit they say 10.Im basically the prey 11.No one sees my way 12.Do I have to write a sign to say 13.I am special, can we play 14.I just want friends if I may 15.My heart is a doomsday 16.Almost as if God committed foul play Verse 2 I was growing through the pain Crying alone in the rain Now I know this was not in vain In the quiet life there is a party behind the scenes of my TV screen no one to disappoint in 0 I start again I learned to focus now i'm better than those who called fake one day i was desperate and now i'm noticed don't blame the refocusing just on my lucky lotus i'm saying goodbye watch this rap takeoff Verse 3 When I was a noob at this game all I ever wanted was to become better I have succeeded more than I expected after practicing I have succeeded for once in my life imma go getter. Hey this rap is mine watch me drop this line it's the winner inside of me I hear the beat I won 50 and 0 defeat me in game I feel like am in retreat dont call rapper call me gaming mc this is in my brain. I mean its in my through my vains. I mean its in my heart. That's the winner inside me. Its hard to defeat what's been defeated over and over. With all the losing there was more to gain. You must go through a lot of pain to become the main,