I figured life is all about timing the next chapter is about me finding myself and being alone and learning to cope keep myself working and clean from the dope I don't know if I could do that right all I can do is just get through tonight cuz I don't know how to plan for things that never happen I feel like crying everyday even when my speakers are slappin and maybe this ain't the most gangster shit but I'm rapping about my life and well this is it sometimes I feel like I'm not supposed to make it, so Im sitting writing songs trying not to fake it, but if it isn't mine to keep I guess I couldn't take it. my faith so strong you can never shake it. I spent some time thinking about all the things i found in haste it's like happiness will never be mine to taste but that's my karma with which i have to deal i created all my pain still can't believe it's real, I'm hurting inside i don't think i can do this alone, thinking and hoping and checking my phone, knowing that there's nothing there to see, probably because no one cares to think of me, at least that's what my brain is screaming, saying I'm not shit why aren't you leaving, i just ignore the thoughts and keep on breathing, sometimes I don't believe that i can make it, so Im sitting writing songs trying not to fake it, if it isn't mine to keep I guess I couldn't take it, my faith so strong you could never shake it. Smiling through the pain pretending that everything's ok, I made a promise to my kids so I am here to stay, trying like hell to be better everyday, in the future maybe I'll be lucky enough to find someone, to spend my days with till I am done. and if that never happens then i guess I'll keep it solo just the way i write my lyrics yolo sometimes I feel like I'm not supposed to make it, so Im sitting writing songs trying not to fake it, but if it isn't mine to keep I guess I couldn't take it, my faith so strong you could never shake it.