Definition of my heartbreak

I play this game like it’s a fucking contest Nah she said I was better then the fucking rest I remember those days, rubbing on ya breast Now I’m sitting on my bed rubbing my head Like, where did the time go I thought we were taking it slow That night I got that text Now your just like you were before moving on to the next I loved you with all my heart I can’t even put it in context Now my shits broken Kinda like what happened to the rest So imma put this to side And try to continue with life Just to let you know I’m Not gonna try and cut like a knife Cuz I don’t do that shit How could you do this shit Litterally I’m falling to pieces And no I ain’t talking about Reese’s But I’m just gonna take my pen And stay up in my den So I can try and better myself again I knew you were fucking with those other men Like you were my best friend I can barely move on with this pain It feels like I’m going so insane That’s why I smoke so I can just numb my brain Remember on my bed how you left that stain? I was there for you when no one else was That night you had I’d have to say a little more then a buzz But like a bee I have to leave your scene And everday at school by you I had to be seen This shit don’t make no sense