how far we've come

look how far we've made it look how far we've come I look into the bluesy as I start to remember smiles on my sisters,moms,sons,dads,and brothers smile crosses my mind and it makes me smile ;ut cry qt the same time and I then come back to reality and the facts are your gone miss you dearly and can't seem to get God to hear me please send me a sign I say in my head thats is staring at the sky and then one more time put my head down and say goodbye as I walk into a new dimension one full of fear and pain and like the rain my tears slowly pour down my face and I begin to relize its just a faze a daze a maze and I turn on the music in my headphones on to drown out all the voices that cause my thoughts to get stuck in s maze again I must return to the now and wat is real wat is fake is my life a mistake what's my purpose on this Earth of destruction,vindictivbess ,hurtfulness and manipulation and tormentation what is the new equation the new diagnosis and on my grave lay beautiful white roses a symbol of purity and humility I begin to Decay in my soul a little each day and on my knees ikneel then pray but then what do I say I suppose life isn't soppost to be eazy but for me it's been a phase of karmic debt for infinity and proximity seems to turn I to an activity I wonder is there any way to change the world or do I need to walk away and begin to doubt everything I've learned and start fresh maybe it wl clear up this mess and I can stress much less till then I say hey man upstairs show me some 3xistence of you please cause I'm getting tired of the way things have unfolded and that the bread finally molded but qhats the next path I will find out someday hopefully amen I felt like a prophecy teller like the ones in the biblical instructions before earth I fell as if I ha e been bestowed a curse someone e call a nurse look how far I have made it look how far I've come look how far we made it look how far we've come